January 18th ~

On this day 4 years ago I had an amino to check Jackson's lung development. I was SOOOO nervous! I had heard horror stories about this procedure and was NOT looking forward to it all! I remember one nurse holding my arms above my head while the other held my feet and watching on the screen as the needle went into my stomach and Jackson jerked away so quickly. After I had the procedure, I began to have contractions. They gave me a shot to stop them until we knew for sure that he was ready to be born. About 7 p.m. we got the call that I would for sure be induced the next morning at 6 a.m. I cannot begin to tell you how nervous I was....not about the delivery....but about coming home with a new baby AND a 17 month old!!!! I remember rocking Mary Dalton the night before I had Jackson and crying because I was so worried that I was going to "mess" up her perfect little world. How would she ever adjust? How would I adjust? Could I possibly love another baby like I love Mary Dalton? And little did I know, that on January 19th at 12:31 p.m. my world would become the best it has ever been. My family would be complete. My heart wanted to explode with the love I felt for my precious, precious Baby Boy ~ Jackson David Dowdy.