Praying for a better week!

Oh has this EVER been a week! My sweet little girl has had a terrible time getting adjusted to “big school” ~this took us by complete surprise! She is VERY used to be at the school with me and her classroom is literally 3 doors down from my room. However, she just is having a REALLY hard time adjusting it. She REALLY and TRULY wants to like and tries to be so brave and that just breaks my heart even more! One night last week, I was sitting on the floor packing backpacks, and she walked up to me and literally threw herself on me crying and sobbing. I asked her what was wrong and she said, “Mama will you just pray for me?” Yes, this broke my heart even more! She was so upset, and her mommy was pretty upset too.

She is getting herself so worked up that she makes herself sick. Then, to top that off, she does not eat breakfast, or anything else for that matter. When I unpack her lunch each day, 99% of the food is untouched. I read somewhere once that when you have a child, you have your heart outside your body. Well, let me just say, that my heart is so sad. I have cried and worried about this all week. We have prayed that God will calm her nerves and let her adjust quickly. I am dreading tomorrow, but trusting God to get us through this.

I am always overly sensitive and tired when school starts anyway, but this adds to my stress level even more and I just cry as much as she does! I am sure her teacher, and my co workers , think that I am nuts…but oh well! She really cannot tell me what she does not like other than the room is too small and there are too many kids ~ both of these are VERY true.
We have spanked, bribed, cried, pleaded, prayed, talked, explained, etc. until I am just about out of things to try! Thank the Lord she has a WONDERFUL parapro who gives her that extra attention she needs! We are loving Miss Tara!!!! J I just hope she loves us back! Ha!

Anyway, on the eve of another our second week at school, I am even more anxious as I know how bad last week was. I have tried really hard to make this a fun day and wear her out so she would sleep good tonight. We have been to the park and swam, plus church…I am tired and hopefully she is too!

I know that all of you who read and have children understand the love that a mother has for her child. You cannot explain it unless you are a mother. You “think” you know how much you will love your children, but really have no idea until they are here. With all of the craziness of the past week, and my heart hurting for my baby girl, I cannot help but think of how much God loves me. I love my 2 babies like nothing else in the world, it is literally indescribable, and to know that God loves them even more than I do……amazing!

It is getting near bedtime and all is well so far. She is enjoying the last of her bubbles and as I type this I can hear her singing songs from Ariel. She is taking “Bitty” with her tomorrow so we are praying that this will help her too. She seems to be ok and not mentioning not much about school and has “pinky promised” that she is going to be a big girl and not cry. Her birthday is Tuesday, so we will take snack and Dalton is going to eat lunch with her, so she does have that to look forward to! If you think about us, say a prayer for her (and her mommy who cannot stand to see her baby girl so sad!).
Will keep you posted and thanks for the prayers!

PS ~ by the way, Jackson is loving school! He gets to be the “wine weader” tomorrow and is pumped! He has the sweetest teachers and his class is adorable! I could have 500 more children and I would have not have 2 that are more opposite! J